I felt it was all coming afresh since i had undergone a serious hospital check and have had series of treatment; Lets say, 34 drips and few syringe on my boots and tablets that scare the hell outta me. I got no choice. survival they say- Is for the strong. I never knew after all of this, i wont come back been the me they knew. Everything changed. It all seems dark now. That part of me that shone so bright in the eyes of people is missing.


I asked myself, was it because of my sins? or my faults? or my negligence? which? I started asking questions i had no answers to. I had organized few interviews with people i often hung out wit in school, church, place of work. But no one could give me a punchy answer. They all kept saying''Something about you is changed''. And I asked myself''What has changed about me''>

I got to discover that during the cause of my stay in the hospital, i have missed alot in school activities, Been far off from people who matters most to me, I have missed those all time dishes of mum, I have missed cool closeness with my brothers and now, the worst of it is''I missed my good time hobby- scripting''. Am i begining to really get answers to my question?



A lady worked up to me few days after i was discharged and asked me if i was ok? At first, it came as a hit but i thought to myself saying''Maybe my face had this sick impression'', but no. She saw somethingelse. The way i interract with her and call her by the name i gave her had all changed. She felt sad. she couldnt even look into my eyes as usual. She feared she was begining to loose her favorite Buddy.

Alot has truely changed about me.................................................. But God has not changed towards me. Not even mum, Nor my siblings or Those who truely are my Friends. I am so glad that this people are working tirelessly in finding the ''Missing Me''.